no
this is not love
nor infatuation
nor obsession
nor lust
This is the first time in my life that I don't have the gut to love.
This thing frighten me.
This time my hope just whither away.
This time I really hope that you'll get the best of your life.

yet,you've missed me.

hah

malam tadi aku bermimpi tentang pelangiku,dengan senyumnya yg memberi rasa aman.
tapi
dia bukan untukkku

is this for real ?

DAMN YOU !!!!
I'm in the middle of ha ha and la la land...
among hundreds of guys...much much more cuter than you !!
and yet
you're still a rainbow.
a glimpse of glittery happiness in this time...when i need my patience more than ever...
are you for real?
or i'm just wasting time?

frustrated incorporated

"even art here is capitalized"
I'm just quoting from my friend is s'pore, Hazel.
Singapore is VERY different since i went there 8 years ago. Well it's still the same well-ordered town as it used to be. More cute guys though :)
But seems that they just looove to build malls.
Malls,malls,malls and malls everywhere you wander. (I've already got sick and tired of Orchard,then i was sooo relief when i went to good'ol church)

never
i'll never be ready when the time comes

cole porterian

I had been waiting for the right time to watch "De-lovely". This afternoon seemed perfect,and it was ! Such a superb combination of music, costume, acting and style!

"stunning sophistication" so to speak...
Eventhough the song " de-lovely" is used as the title of the movie,there's one song that really-really embrace me. I love that song since High School, when i heard Chicago big band played it. (Thanks to Catrin,for introduced me to them)
the song is : Night and Day
such a simple song and never fails to make me happy.

Night and day,
you are the one;
Only you beneath the moon,
under the sun.
Whether near to me or far,
It's no matter darlin', where you are;
I think of you, night and day.

Night and day, why's it so,
That this longing for you, follows wherever i go.
In the roaring traffic's boom;
In the silence of my lonely room;
I think of you, night and day.

Night and day, under the hide of me,
There's an old, such a hungry yearning,
burning inside of me;
And this torment won't be through,
Till you let me spend my life making love to you;
Day and night, night and day

In that movie, Cole Porter helps a young actor to sing it.
"don't worry about the note
just imagine you're in love and sing it"

let's sing folks!!

fear

what i fear most is coming
I've been dreading this since 6th grade.
I guess i have to spend more time with my dad,
before any regret may comes

litte piggy

this little piggy hates this time of the year
when she feels left out.
when all creatures are saying sorry to each others
most of them just don't mean what they say.

such a superficial community

Crystallized

For sure now
that the rainbow is heading towards it's intended direction
for it's pure feeling has longing to settle
eventough that direction already broke it before
still....

and yes
the direction is utterly,exactly,definitely
not heading here

completely understood
over and out

infatuation or just a mark of compassion?

slightly elated
wildly elaborated
was it?
nor it was lust
nor it was passion
pretty damn sure about that!

perhaps just a glimpse shadow of the past
yet spread glitter in my hollow soul

impulsif,apakah itu hal yang baik atau buruk?
yang jelas saya hanya ingin menyenangkan orang lain,dan kebetulan menyenangkan diri saya sendiri juga.

highest gratitude

Tonight was the best birthday I've ever had.
Accompanied by A yin and Sisi.
This made me realize how lucky i am to have such marvelous best friends.

Thank you !!

what the heck

like Tesla sung :
"I've got a lot of love or you
I guess that means I've got a lot to loose"
Turns out that eventhough the person I love can't love me back in return,I'll still alive.

My rainbow,it's been years since I had a crush on you sweetie pie (lho kok malah nyanyi lagunya Blossom Dearie??). Now,it's a gift from Him that I can see you again.

land of confusion

My Good Lord
he's been infiltrating my mind! yet he's too busy with his life,like a Ganesha with 8 hands.
how oh how can i speak to him?
advices from my peers:
1. be a WOMAN, let him move first. I remember it by chanting Gloria Gaynor's "First be a Woman". Shall i act like Juliet?
2. DO NOT EVER call or message him first. well,since i don't have his cell number....
3. Take him out with a group of friends. Hmmm... difficultoo
4. Find out who's his best friends are.
do you have more ??
keep it coming!

overlooked

I've just realize that I have overlooked someone who I thought to be mediocre.
Well,I did think that he was cute,but waaaaaaaaaaay too silent.
well, hopefully it'll end up like one of my favourite song from New order.
"Maybe I've forgotten the name and the address
of everyone I've ever loved, there's nothing i regret"
Thankfully, I still remember his name.
I wish we could know each other better.
HEY my fairy Godmother, was that too much for a wish?
hopefully not.
Guess, he'll be my rainbow after rainy days.....

after the rain

you know what i loooooooove most after the rain?
Not that fresh feeling like all ypur problems has washed away
Not that smell of wet grass
but
sometimes we can see a patch of rainbow.
that sight give a sudden urge for me to sing one of the carpenters's song:

"When there's no gettin' over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you"

Well, that song popped into my mind and has been haunting me ever since i met that guy.
He looks lonely and sad ( from things that he has written in his blog) but he gave me a patch of rainbow.
"Curiosity kills a cat", they say... but i ain't no feline ( perhaps a piggy ), just one simple person with an enourmous amount of curiosity for this guy. I wish i know him more, however...great expectation leads to greater dissapointment...

terima kasih saya sudah diberi sedikit pelangi.


lucu juga kali ya kalo disambung sama lagunya the cure
"you you
soft and only
you
just like heaven"

george is underrated

and john is overrated.
In my opinion, Harrison got more talent than john,but he was way too humble.Listening to something always makes my eyes melt. Here comes the sun can easily lift my spirit.
I should make a homage for harrison.

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right

Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right

Little darling,
the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all rightHere comes the sun, here comes the sun
It's all right, it's all right

Here Comes The Sun(George Harrison)

swing ora jamu

Mama Ella....
Tante Sarah.... J'adore vous!!
apa jadinya jika gak ada swing? garing bener seluk beluk jazz di dunia.

dapet salam balik doang kok seneng ya?

Certain stuffs in our mind are too heavy to talk. However, sometimes it just too mediocre....
When i first heard KEANE's song, the lyric just stab me bluntly.
"but i can't stop now,i've got troubles of my own.Cos I'm short on time.
I'm lonely, but i'm too tired too talk."
that's just the chorus,which has made my limps goes weak.
You should hear the rest of them.

beatles!!

buat gue mereka bukan cuma grup musik..tapi juga komposer!
Gimana nggak? lagu2 mereka tetep punya semangat yang sama pas dinyanyiin Sarah Vaughan, Cheap Trick ato Four Tops..
malah tambah kental "jiwa" nya. Mungkin karena ditambah soul kali